5/9/15

Yesterday I left Los Angeles. I’m heading to central Appalachia for a few months. I stopped to get gas in Barstow only to find out my credit card had been shut off because someone has been using it to stay in fancy hotels in New York City. My address is my car and it was difficult to come up with a place for them to send the new card. In the mean time I must call my bank every time I want to use the card. After I answer a few security questions, they turn it on for my purchase then shut it back off. I checked my email on the border of California and Arizona and found an angry email from a good friend. I cried for the next four hours while I drove along Highway 40. I make this drive a lot and I don’t usually stop in the Grand Canyon but I thought it might make me feel better so I headed to the park. I looked out at this incredible natural wonder and felt very small. I realized how inconsequential my problems are. I realized how hard it is, even in the presence of such immense beauty to let go of the things that weigh us down, the things that prevent us form truly engaging with the world in a pure way. I’m not even sure what that means. I watched tourists from all over the world photograph themselves, smiling in front of the landscape. I looked at the barrier the park built to keep us all contained, to keep us from falling over the edge and I felt the weight of this barrier in my life. I saw a woman climb down around it and I felt lazy because I didn’t want to. Then it started to snow and I got cold because I only packed summer clothes for this trip. I got in my car and drove away. Photograph by @stacykranitz #grandcanyon #snow #credit by everydayusa


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